The Third Wheel♥

 

The Third Wheel♥ 

I used to be the one,

Who, to everything was told.

You had nothing to hang on to.

Nothing to let go. 

Nothing was held,

Nor was kept. 

As time will progress,

I will know less, and less.

Continue to tell him,

Her, they and them.

Instead of me.... 

We'll see who comes back running

When him, her, they, and them

Have gone to worry about 

Them, they, her and him.

The only thing that is more unfair

is that when you come back

For whatever it is you want me for,

I will have open arms,

Like I have always had before.

Sometimes Reality is so much more Surreal.

Be a Dreamer, Awake or Asleep. Be a Dreamer. Even the imagined means something. Even the imagined MAKES you something.

Death. How do we value it? Life. How do we value it? How much do we take for granted every day? How do we know that next Wednesday, that we will still be alive? We do not. We do not know how much longer we will live. We do not value life as we should, nor do we value death as we should. We take almost everything we encounter everyday for granted. We do not realize what our essentials truly are. What do we really need? We worry our time with being the best at something, or even sometimes being the worst. Too worried about attention and how we look. Both physically and mentally how people take us in. Why rest on nonchalant thoughts? If I were to pass in my sleep, I would hope that night something more important was on my mind than what I am wearing the next day. Like, how much I love someone, or adore the natural world. Thoughts and ponders, wonders and enlightening realizations. Even if they were all in my mind and never shared, I would like to go with purpose. Even if my just purpose was to be a dreamer.


Inspiration by the passing of Patrick Odom, only a junior who attended my school. Mar. 21 2011.

SIA!!!!

I went to go to bed, I just wanted to rest. I slipped on a plastic wrapper in my floor, slid into my bed side table,  and stubbed my big toe. As THIS happened, I sneezed, coughed, hit my head, and bit both my lip and tongue all at once. I stayed awake all night. Screw it all.

Sometimes It Happens

"Two birds of a feather
Say that they're always
Gonna stay together
But one's never goin' to
Let go of that wire
...He says that he will
But he's just a liar

Two birds on a wire
One tries to fly away
And the other
Watches him close
From that wire
He says he wants to as well
But he is a liar."

- Regina Spektor

 The most important thing I have ever learned in my life is to never let anyone hold you back. As much as you may love or want someone, they may not be what you need. As selfish as it may sound, if someone does not allow you to help them, you need to move on with your own life. Never plan your life around people, circumstances are hard enough to deal with and everyone has them. One thing that sucks the most is to look back on your life and realize a big mistake that you could have easily avoided, and to notice you are in a place you do not want to be in. Do not have regrets is what we are all told, which is near impossible, so do not make it harder. If someone in your life is causing destruction, be it self-destruction or not, that is hurting you and they will not change or get help at any cost, talk to them about it and leave it at that, and go. Live happily. It may hurt at first, or even for a while but the pain will not last. If they choose to change, you still need to be careful, because it may be a lie just to get you back in their life. This does not mean that they do not love you, it just means they are not sure what is best for the both of you. But you need to know what is the best. And that is to move on. To stop caring about things that can not be fixed right now. Maybe in a few years they will know you were right and change at their own good, because sometimes it takes a while before people realize how right you were at the moment.

Favorite song!~!!! Please listen and tell me what you think

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0YEhyJTPNJU 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLse7g_Nfuo

Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You've always known your heart was on its own

So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You've always known your heart was on its own

So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived life can be loved alone

Lost And Restless, By yours truly.

Lost and Restless

Carmen Ray 



Lost in time I cry for you.

Lost in the ticking of this clock,

I wait.

Restless and awake,

or settled and asleep,

I dream.

I do not live, I exist.

I do not live, I wait.

I do not live, I dream.

Is it for anything worthy?

For the day you love me,

like a father should?

Some Stuff About ME

Five years ago . . . I was ten years old and a loooooooser xD
Five years from now . . . I hope to have 2 years left of college (hopefully in arts or cosmetology)
I love when . . . My MP3 stays charged

I hate when . .  People are all up in my space! 
The farthest I have ever traveled from home is . . . New York
My favorite place in the world is  . . . My room.

My favorite person is John Lennon.

My favorite book is Same Stuff As Stars :)
My favorite movies are: Phantom Of The Opera, Repomen, and Hunchback of Notre Dame
I like Indie music and Basketball.

i daydream about a better life.  I like yellow and the number 7. I can't always handle the truth...
Boredom is annoying.